I often don't discuss what it is like living away from my friends and family, mostly because it's an indescribable feeling and more importantly it's a choice. On one hand life is rich, and exploding with new experiences, and on the other hand, it can be empty, and lonely. Eventually, yes, you re-create a little tribe, and your backbone is stacked back together but I truly believe that with every friend I make, a little part of my heart leaves when we part.
We love our life here in Indonesia, and we have re-created our backbones here with some amazing friends who will take a piece of my heart when we or they must leave, but life in Jakarta can be destabilizing. For a girl who discovered life and happiness in the woods, and the hills, cities can be a labyrinth for her soul.
Sarah Kay has a wonderful TED talk, that I often listen to on Mondays when I need a little pick-me-up. Her poem Plan B still makes my heart ache, but she also talks about writing poetry, and how she uses her art, to figure things out.
On my recent trip back to CA, I spent many mornings with my camera wandering the woods at sunrise. Little did I know until after I started editing my photographs from home, that I spent these mornings, finding my way through that labyrinth I had created back in Jakarta.
I'm a firm believer that life, and growing old is a journey of continued discovery. My desire to travel, and explore, crazy congested cities like Jakarta or mull about life with a cold mojito is Cuba, will never wane and is a much a part of me as these woods, and my home is but it's a lovely reminder that there is one place that I will forever be connected to which will bring me back down to earth, and shine a pretty little ray on sunshine on my soul.
Thank you to the beautiful muses, Rachel from Silkworm Vintage and Lauren Wessman for a fun. freezing evening playing in the woods.
Clothes: Silkworm Vintage
Hair & Make-Up: Lauren Wessman